"These rules were made to break, and these walls were built to fall"

I'm in Hawaii. In the hotel room. There is a three hour difference. It's almost 11 here. Kelly Belly and I just got back from swimming. And she is reading everything I'm typing right now. hi kelly.

And I"m the only one who can call her kelly belly without it being jsut strange. [that includes you, keegan]

I'm on my mom's laptop and not being able to scroll easily is really annoying me. Ugh.

Um, I was gonna say something else, but then I forgot.

I have an idea! I'm not gonna say what it is right now, besides you guys will probably think it's stupid. Let's just say it has to do with vlogging.

My shoes are awesome! I got new shoes! (yah, I probably should have switched around the first two sentences, but whatever) They're hard to esplain though. Well, nto really, I'm just too lazy. You'll see them, sometime.

"All we need, isa little bit of momentum"

Sometimes I randomly break into song.

Isn't that right Kelly?

Kelly is being secretive. O.o

Haha I used Johan's face thingy!!

Ok I'm rambling. but that is the name of this blog right?

yah... ok.

bye.

"to break that these walls, that we built around ouselves."

"In a field outside of town"

Alex says hi!!
[and let's pretend Becca says hi too, except she's still asleep]
wait... I'm not the last one awake! Amazing!

OMG. I just ate a thin mint!! lol George.

I'm tired...
but not really, cause 4:30 is only like an hour/hour and a half away from how late I usually stay up.

We listened to the Hush Sound. And watched the music videos. And talked to Spike Dog on AIM or whatever his name is. You know, that white rapper guy? Yah... you probably don't know who he is, I just know because of one of my dance friends. Actually, Alex and Becca were doing that while I was typing the post last night.

We should go to the movies! Like, while I'm not in Hawaii!

"like vines we intertwined"

Sleepovers, Harry Potter, and Hawaii

I'm at Becca's house. On her computer. So this is gonna be short. Partly because I'm at a sleepover and partly because I really don't have anything to say.
We watched The Ringer. It was funny!!
Then we prank called. a lot. Even a couple random numbers, which Iyes I know) you're never supposed to do.
Now we're listening to Weezer =]
Oh wait, she just changed it to... Camp Rock. =I
Oh, goodness.

I love the Harry Potter computer games!!! (I've had them for years, this is not a new obsession)
lol... Marilyn and her younger brother.

Me, kelly, and my mom are going to Hawaii!! I'm not sure when, sometime in the next couple of days. I'm excited, I've never been to Hawaii. =]=]
I hope my karma on Plurk doesn't go down too much...
(yah, I worry about this kind of stuff)

Ok bye.

"and when I see you, I really see you upside down"

The concert was amazing. For those of you who didn't know, I went to a Death Cab for Cutie concert. It was, like I [kinda] said, awesome!! It was fun, right Keegan? Even though we didn't know all of the songs...

They played my song!! Marching Bands of Manhattan... I was so excited when they started playing it. Keegan was laughing at me.

And then I bought a t-shirt! And a CD! Which I am currently listening to, hence the title.

So yesterday I went to my cousin's party thing for her graduation. As usual, the whole time my sister and I were just sitting there talking [or in my case reading] or playing with the little kids. Our second cousin [she's 5] ended up staying with us! She slept over last night, and she's sleeping over again tonight. We're baking a cake tomorrow =]=]

So um, I think I should probably go to bed soon. Even though I don't really want to, or feel like it. Maybe I'll just read. And fall asleep reading. I'm kind of nervous to start reading this book. Like a lot of books I read, I know about the author, or have heard of the book, or it's reccomended or something. But sometimes I just pick up a random one and read the back. Actually, I do that a lot, but I rarely buy them. But when I do buy them, I get really nervous before I start to read it. So now I'm nervous.

I finished The Bermudez Triangle at like exactly 2 in the morning last night. It was really good. Good job, Maureen Johnson. As usual. lol.

And I can't believe Barnes n Nobles and Borders both didn't have An Abundance of Katherines!! I'll have to look in Vromans.

Ok I'll stop rambling now.

"but my brain knows better, it picks you up, and turns you round"

I'm an INFP

Yes I know it's one in the morning. I just don't really care.

So I just took this personality test, right? Like, the ultimate personality test.

Turns out I'm an INFP.

INFP - "Questor". High capacity for caring. Emotional face to the world. High sense of honor derived from internal values. 4.4% of total population.

Free Jung Personality Test (similar to Myers-Briggs/MBTI)

So I look at the description for what I am. (There is a link to that in the results thing. Just click on "INFP")

And I'm kind of freaked out because it's like EXACTLY RIGHT. All the charactistics described me like, perfectly. I could like, relate to all of them. Except where it says creative and smart. That's debatable, a matter of opinion. But other than that, it was like PERFECT. It's kinda creepy.

You guys should take the test! I'm kind of curious about what you would get...

Also, I took this other personality test. It's called your personalDNA. Here's a link thing to the results I got:
My personalDNA Report

The wasps are out to get me!!

So I went outside to read for a while like I said on Plurk, right? So I'm laying down in the grass reading, and then the wasps come! I started to have an arguement with them. But they weren't listening. Everytime I thought they went away, I would see another one!! Eventually they kicked me off of the grass. =[=[ I read somewhere else outside instead.

And then, I saw a hummingbird!! Really up-close!! It was so cool!! I wish I could have gotten a picture...

So yesterday I was really bored. So I went outside and started playing around with the timer thing on my camera. And took some weird, random pictures of myself. I'll probably put them on later.

But right now I'm gonna go clean my room then go back outside and read some more.

=]=]

Flickr Game

I saw this on another blog and decided to do it =]=]

Rules:
a. Type your answer to each of the questions below into Flickr Search.
b. Using only the first page, pick an image.
c. Copy and paste each of the URLs for the images into fd's mosaic maker

Questions:
1. What is your first name?
2. What is your favorite food?
3. What high school did you go to?
4. What is your favorite color?
5. Who is your celebrity crush?
6. Favorite drink?
7. Dream vacation?
8. Favorite dessert?
9. What you want to be when you grow up?
10. What do you love most in life?
11. One Word to describe you.
12. Your flickr name.



1. Camille 2. Thin Mints 3. Sacred Heart 4. Green 5. George Weasley 6. diet black cherry hansens 7. Morro Bay 8. chocolate ice cream 9. happy 10. friends 11. spontaneous 12. wytherwings (when I get an account on Flickr, which I plan to)

they didn't have anything when I searched for wytherwings!! I had to search witherwings instead.

and my high school doesn't look like that

Plurk, addicted, and the plot that bees have against me.

I got stung by a bee! Actually, it was just laying there (maybe it was dead...) but I didn't know it was there, so I put my hand on it, and yah...

But my hand feels fine now. lol.

After I got stung though, they were completely out to get me!! I'm serious! They wouldn't stop following me!! So I started yelling at them and arguing with them, just like the spider. I don't think bugs listen to me.

Umm that's really all I have to say. Though I do love Plurk. It's cool. But you don't really do anything... I don't know, it's probably more fun when you have more friends. Harry needs to accept my friend request thing!!

I love nerdighters.
I love ficlets.
I love Plurk.
I love Flickr.
I (kinda) love Youtube.
I'm addicted, and this is not a good thing.

I kind of feel like going outside though...
But my mom is right there in the kitchen.
uugghhh.

Ok leaving now.

By the way, I still refuse to get a Facebook.

When do I change my mind about that George?

Camille how did you manage to log in to my account? lol

oh

oopps, this is camillo's account. this is camille. sorry. im logging out now.

Quiz results again

Personality Disorder Test Results Paranoid |||||||||| 38% Schizoid |||||||||||| 50% Schizotypal |||||||||||||| 58% Antisocial |||||||||| 38% Borderline |||||||||||||||||| 74% Histrionic |||||||||| 38% Narcissistic |||| 14% Avoidant |||||| 26% Dependent |||||||||||||| 54% Obsessive-Compulsive |||||||||||||| 58%

Take Free Personality Disorder Test
personality tests by similarminds.com

Brain Lateralization Test Results

Right Brain (68%) The right hemisphere is the visual, figurative, artistic, and intuitive side of the brain. Left Brain (36%) The left hemisphere is the logical, articulate, assertive, and practical side of the brain

Are You Right or Left Brained?(word test)
personality tests by similarminds.com

"We shed what was left of our summer skin"

I have nothing to say. Walking around aimlessly, sitting and staring, pretending the people in the forrums and on ficlets care what I say, trying to forget that I'm alone.

That high of being by yourself and doing whatever you want lasts about 5 seconds. And then your like- what the hell?

I'm in a weird mood that I can only describe as- sluggish, sick of everything, confused, bored, numb, desperate.

I was having an argument with this spider that wouldn't leave today. It was rather one-sided.

I'm gonna go outside. See what is new out there. Even though there is nothing new out there. Maybe I'll- I don't know.

I have dance later. Auditions. Ugh. Auditions at my studio are hard to explain. I will not attempt it now. Because, I don't really feel like explaining it again.

"We frolicked about in our summer skin."

I'm listening to Bright Eyes. this has nothing to do with the post. just can't think of a title. or a good one anyways.

Ok. I found the silver-lining. Well, I didn't just find it. It's basically the only thing I've been looking forward to about high school for... years. Starting over. Guess what? One person is going to know me at Sacred Heart. One person!! So I have a clean slate. I can be whoever I want to be. Make whatever name for myself that I want.

Starting over freaks me out too. I have to make friends. I suck at that.

But no one (except Drew) will know anything about who I am! It's a second chance.

I don't know how to explain this. I've been trying for the past like 13 minutes. But I can't really... I don't know. I'm not good at explaining my thoughts.

But the reason I've been scared- which is what I can't really explain- will be gone. I know, I shouldn't be scared to be myself, but just because you shouldn't be scared of something, doesn't mean you aren't, right?

There will be different reasons, of course. But I will be unknown, until someone gets to know me. Once again. I'm not making myself clear.

But. I will miss.. everything. You know that safe feeling? Maybe you don't. Maybe only shy people know that feeling. Or maybe just me. The one where you feel yourself cracking a shell when you're with the people your confortable with, and then going back into the shell when you're not. Everything is unknown next year, and I'll miss being around people I'm totally confortable being myself with.

That's incredibly selfish.

I"m so lucky to know you guys.

I"m not going through this again, ok? I'll miss you, and I'm never going to forget you. And I hope you know that by now because I'm not writing about it again.

And what's also incredibly selfish is that I hope you guys won't forget me, your stubborn, indecisive, selfish friend.

KFC'S CRUETLY TO ANIMALS

Make your own KFC sign at peta2.com

Um, Bye I Guess

So yesterday was Graduation. And today was the dance. They were both fun. and depressing. I mean, my friends have kind of been my life this year, and now we're all leaving. And seeing everyone cry, including Mrs. Farrar-Perkins, made me want to cry. It's just starting to hit me- that we're leaving. I mean, I've been freaking out about it all year, and then when it comes to the end, I'm kind of numb. Strange. But now, I'm just really, sad I guess. And nervous.

I'm not big on hugs. I don't hug people very often, I like to avoid awkward situations. But everyone was hugging. And I really, kind of wanted to. I'm not making sense. But, I don't know. I'm really going to miss everyone. I'm not very good at saying it, or writing it in letters, but I am.

I just don't see how anything could be better than being friends with you guys.

Crap.

Bye.

See you on Tuesday.

"Tell me tell me do you feel the pressure now?"

I'm listening to Paramore, as you can kinda tell from the title.

Talent Show was today!! Lol that was fun.

"everybody sing, like it's the last time you will ever sing"

I remember the ficlet I wrote to this song...

Thinking about that ficlet makes me want to write a ficlet. Or do something creative. I get that feeling a lot, but I usually can't come up with anything creative enough to satisfy... um, me?

Yah ok.

Well. Keegan is telling me to come on AIM. Ok I'm coming.
I'll go on ficlets later.
Or at the same time...
Or most likely both.

lol k bye Keegan and Camille are waiting.

Kinda

"We were born for this"

On Thinking, Alaska, Movies, and Vinegar.

So today and yesterday I've been doing a lot of sitting and staring off into space in my room. And not sitting in normal places in my room. (which is tiny, if you haven't seen it. But I love my tiny room) Like, in on the ground in the middle of the room, or on the ground against my bed, or in the corner, or against my door, or sideways on my bed, or hanging off of it or something strange like that. And I've just been thinking. About what? Random things. If a random person saw me they would think "Oh, she's thinking about something really important." But I'm really not. I mean sometimes I am, I guess. But mostly I'm just rambling... but in my head.

I think too much. Over think, analyzed, or just, THINK. All the time!! My brain just won't be quiet!!! I mean, I know it's like impossible to stop thinking, but I think my brain does extra. Which is impossible, I know. Ok, I'm not making any sense. I can't explain it in words. I've tried explaining this before, and the people just looked at me strangely. (is that a word?) But I know what I mean. So it's ok. =]=]

ANYWAYS. I finally put Bright Eyes on my computer!!! I mean, I've only had the cd for like months, right? lol. Except the person who burned the cd for me doesn't read my blog so whatever.

I finished Looking for Alaska!!! It was really good!!! It has occurred to me that I have read very few books that I actually didn't like. Same with movies. I guess I am easily pleased when it comes to books and movies.

But ones that I have really loved, that's a different story.

I'm seeing Prince Caspian tonight with my family. I'm excited because Kelly Belly and I are Movie Buddies, but since I've been going to the movies with my friends more this year we haven't been Movie Buddies as often. =[=[

But seriously no matter what we are seeing it's really fun going to the movies with my sister. =]=] lol we are so strange together. You should have seen us last night after we got home from that pizza place. OMG ITS WINE VINEGAR!! yah...

I think Kelly Belly and I will um... "continue" making cookies from scratch tonight.

THAT IS SO JOKES (no one gets it =[=[)

Yah... I'm beginning to become obsessed with Nerdfighters. And also Botherhood 2.0. They kind of go hand-in-hand don't they? So it's kind of frustrating that no one at lunch knew who John Green was today. And that if I start to say jokes instead of cool and add In Your Pants at the end of random book titles people will have no idea what I'm talking about. And the Yeti? DFTBA? Song Wednesdays? Made of Awesome? Forget it.

But at the same time I kind of like it. Like being part of this thing that barely anyone that I know personally know about. Is that incredibly selfish? Yah probably. Oh. Well.

I love nerdfighters. I love it!!! It's exactly my kind of thing. A big organization made up of people who are just as nerdy/enthusiastic/strange as me. And fighting against world-suck? What could be better?

Don't think I've forgotten about Ficlets. I haven't. I'm still addicted.

This is kind of bad though. I still need to get off the computer and go outside. I don't want to become like a vombie, practically living in front of the computer.

But... so... many... websites!!! That I love!!

Ugh. Man, I'm a conflicted person. (and I had a conversation about that with someone on Nerdfighters too. lol.)

Oh My Gooodness. I haven't written a ficlet forever it seems like. I'm worried that I'm replacing my ficlets addiction with a nerdfighters addiction. This is really not good. Because I love ficlets.

Man I'm beginning to talk [type] like them too.

Now off to watch B20, read Looking for Alaska, WRITE A FICLET [or a couple], take a shower, and make a house of cards!!

[not all at the same time of course]