Decisions

Decisions scare me. They scare the crap out of me. I'm not as worried of making the wrong decisions, as what will happen as a result of my decisions. But I'm most scared of making decisions that other people won't like. Well, that my parents won't like. Because they might not be according to plan, they might not be logical, they might not be what seems like the right decision to them. And when they want an explanation, I can't give them one. I take one look at their faces, and immediatly regret it, or change my mind. Anything than having to expalin myself. And I'm not sure why. It just scares me so fucking much.